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094 - MADRID II (TODOS LOS SANTOS)

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Todos los Santos changes and the 2th becomes the day of the souls, Día de los Muertos. Today I had lunch with some of my family, the family that I still have from my biological father, and we all said goodbye and because we are sort of loud but not overly sentimental some things my aunt said surprised me a lot. And I'm happy because due the divorce and my biological father estrangement I always feel sort of alone on these occasions, even if I know it's not intentional, I'm always on my own when I'm with them. My mum has, obviously, another life now and my brother has distanced himself, so the family bonds I have when I'm with them are somewhat thinner... and that feels lonely. It's quite curious I can be social and talkative, but I have these spells were I just disconnect, and my mind goes elsewhere; I'm the quiet girl, the good girl, so, a lot of times I don't know if they even like me as I don't engage all that much. And today I felt appreciated and valued by my aunt, and understood. And that's a wonderful feeling. 

Enjoy the change that comes from autumn, and enjoy your families, doesn't matter the form they have. 

4 comentarios:

  1. What an impressive shot! That tree looks immense and so powerful against that gloomy sky!
    I'm glad to read you've felt so gratified by your aunt appreciations - it is good to feel loved, especially by a part of the family that you didn't feel like you could connect so much with!

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    1. THANK YOU! I am happy about it, family is an strange thing, right? Connecting with someone is so difficult sometimes...

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  2. I agree with Polly, about both the photograph and family. I come from a completely typical family -perhaps a little estrangement with some members in my extended family but I will never be able to iimagine what it's like with your immediate family. I'm glad you've come out of it strong and happy, though, Tanit. :)

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    1. My family is SO complicated that sometimes I forget that's not the norm, that people has a dad and a mum and perhaps a brother and a sister... but I've come to accept it and be really happy with it because that means that I have something like 20 cousins and things like that, the more the merrier! XD

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